Thursday, February 10, 2011
There is this gentleman, S, whom I adore.
I do not know him well enough yet.
And perhaps to him, I am just one of the passers-by (oh yes, as I have to do that everyday!)
I know I should not rush into things.
I know if he is meant to be mine, no matter what happens, he will be.
I always tell myself that I have to be bolder to approach him.
Or at least smile whenever I see him...
But I am so shy...
I get so tongue tied whenever I see him
My smile must have looked as if I was forced or so.
If you ever read this, please do not mistaken me as being as unfriendly.
You see, my heart, my brain and my body language do not coordinate well when you are around.
My heart must have been in my mouth then!
I am so dumb struck on what I should do next.
I do not want to waste anymore time
Only to find out that some ladies just took his heart
Only to find out that I never took the effort to get to know him
Only to find out that he does not know how I feel
Wow! I blushed just by typing all these.
What is "ladies should not try so hard"?
What is "let guys make the first move all the time?"
Heart thumping in my mouth again!
In my office's calendar last year, at the little corner next to 31 Dec 2010, I wrote: "Welcome to 2011 where all dreams come true!"
This came really late, we are in the mid of February 2011 and here I am saying "HAPPY NEW YEAR!" and not forgetting the ongoing "HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR" too! I hope everyone out there will have a blast in the White Bunny year! Before that, do not forget to enjoy the warmth of being able to get together with family and friends during the festive season, savoring great food along the way and not forgetting, collecting traditional ang pau (if you are still eligible, that is!)
I have been busy since my last update - handing over my work, packing and finally left the place where I am so familiar with on 1st January 2011! I cried and had a heavy heart when I left. It was not easy but I know there shall be great excitements ahead!
Despite everything else, including cross picking someone's luggage in LCCT, Kuala Lumpur on 1st January 2011 ended up not having proper luggage for 3 days in Singapore, life has been great so far. Yes, I do miss home at times, but work and classes have been keeping me busy. If I told you I have not done any revision so far, despite attending all the classes, you should not be surprised.
I basically fell in love with my work and company. I enjoy working in a big company, even though it naturally has a lot of policies, which I would personally prefer. My colleagues are great and I think I am able to catch up pretty quickly. Though I am under a year contract, I am trying to work for more than I am expected of, so that I can become an asset to the company. Once I get through that, I will be standing on my toes less. Time is ticking, I have only 10 1/2 months left?
I went home for a really short break over the long weekend due to Chinese New Year. I should have taken a longer break as I felt that I did not have sufficient time for everyone who loves me. It was definitely felt good to be home again. Nothing beats your own bed, your own car, your own toilet and your own TV! It was a busy time at home too, as we had an open house on the 2nd day of CNY. Do not bother to ask me how many people came visiting? It was definitely close to 100 from 12pm to 8pm alone! It was so exhaustive! In midst of all that, I still went for "Shaolin Temple" in the cinema.
All the best to me, and to you all too, in the New Year where all dreams come true!
Remain positive always ;)